Okay, TVD fans, I know you’ve always secretly wondered what goes on in Damon’s mind. Well, “Nostalgia’s a Bitch” gives you that chance and hits us right in the nostalgic feels as the title suggests. This episode is all about forgiveness as Damon is stuck in his own mind because Sybil flipped his humanity switch back on. Now it’s up to Caroline and Bonnie (with the help of Sybil of all people) to try and get him out of his trancelike state. And with Selene and Stefan planning to burn Mystic Falls to the ground, they’re on a bit of a time crunch.
Here’s some of the highlights…
Cue the ugly sobbing as Caroline got to have a conversation with her mom while she was in Damon’s head. Granted, it revolved around finding Damon, and Sheriff Forbes accused Caroline of killing a bunch of people. Then she locked her up in some room without her vampire ring and kept burning her with the sun. However, all of this was to illustrate Caroline’s forgiveness toward Damon. It took this for her to realize how much she actually appreciated Damon for being her mom’s best friend and being there for her when she was dying. It was really touching to watch.
Caroline: “He was the only person who truly understood how much it hurt to lose you. And as strange as it sounds, that made me forgive him for everything else.”
Bonnie also got to pay a visit to a lost loved one. She went to Grams for help on a locator spell for Damon. They got to catch up a little. Bonnie informed her how much vampires are involved in her life and confessing that she’s even in love with one. It was a sweet moment. Even though Bonnie still hadn’t read Damon’s letter from when he left, she found it in Grams’ house and used it for the locator spell. (I’ll talk about this letter a bit later)
Bonnie: “Pretty much all of my friends are vampires now. I’m even in love with one.”
Grams: “Bonnie Bennett, are you trying to kill me?”
Bonnie went into Damon’s mind already believing that Damon deserved forgiveness because they’re best friends and that’s what best friends do. While still in Damon’s mind, Tyler even tried to convince her that Damon didn’t deserve forgiveness, but she still held firm. She even managed to convince Damon that he deserved it.
Originally, Stefan went in to Damon’s mind believing that he was the one that needed to forgive Damon, but that wasn’t the case. Damon needed to forgive Stefan for turning him all those years ago. So that Stefan could forgive himself. Yes, it’s confusing, but this gave us a nice brotherly moment from Damon that we don’t get too often.
Damon: “So, for the last time, I forgive you for making me what I am. I absolve you of all the death and destruction I’ve caused as a result. And you want to know why? Because you’re my brother. And I love you. And there’s nothing you could do to ever change that.”
But with Stefan’s humanity still off, Damon’s words don’t seem to affect him much. He originally came to safe Stefan from burning with the rest of the town, but his feelings change after Damon’s forgiveness speech. He informs Damon of his plan with Selene to burn Mystic Falls to the ground once the Maxwell is rung 12 times by Matt or is father.
Stefan: “Hell is what I’m talking about. So, before that beautiful brass bell rings, forgive me, Damon… I dare you. And while you’re at it, forgive me for coming here and trying to save you. Forgive me for having the tiniest shred of guilt about leaving you to die with everyone else. For not seeing that the only way to get rid of you is to let you go up in flames with the rest of the damn town.”
Damon Saves Mystic Falls
With Stefan out on sabbatical on being the hero, saving Mystic Falls from becoming literal hell is all up to Damon. Since Stefan compelled Matt to ring the Maxwell bell, he tells his dad that he has to stop him from ringing the bell… no matter what it takes. And just as Matt’s dad is about to regretfully break his own son’s neck, Damon comes in and stops him and Matt from ringing the bell, saving Mystic Falls.
As everyone knows, Matt and Damon aren’t exactly on the greatest of terms. Matt’s never been able to forgive Damon for what happened to his sister, Vicki… or for anything else that he has done to his friends for that matter. But we’re slowly working towards a resolve between these two.
Damon: “I’m sorry about Vicki. I know you’ll never forgive me for what I did, but I should have told you this a long time ago.” ….
Matt: “Well, you did just save my father and pretty much the entire town, so that counts for something in my book.”
Damon: “Does that mean we’re good?”
Matt: “Not by a long shot. But you keep earning it the way you did tonight, I’m not ruling anything out.”
Caroline Captures Stefan
Stefan: “Why are you here?”
Caroline: “Because I love you, Stefan. The other you. The good you. But this quarter of a man I’m staring at isn’t you. Not even remotely. So if Damon is the answer to getting your humanity back, and not me, fine. I will do whatever it takes. And we will love each other forever or we won’t. And we’ll make our relationship work… or we won’t. But either way, I’m getting you back.”
The Letter (CUE THE TEARS)
Damon: “Dear Bonnie, I am a coward. I should be saying this to your face, not writing this letter, but I know if I do, you’ll talk me out of running away from all my problems. You’re gonna make me face a future without Elena. Then you’re gonna help make me the best man that I can possibly be. The same way she did. And I’m absolutely terrified of failing you both. So I’m leaving. Because I’d rather let you down once than let you down for the rest of your life. And I hope it’s the happiest life. Because you, Bonnie Bennett, are an amazing woman, a mediocre crossword puzzle player and my best friend. With great love and respect, Damon.”
The Vampire Diaries airs Fridays at 8/9c on The CW!
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