It’s prom night on Awkward and none of that mattered; not Matty taking Bailey to prom, Sadie finally experience true love, Ming worried about losing her virginity, or Jake surprising Tamara with a cheetah print tux. Awkward. ended their season finally in a way we’ve never seen before, with a powerful lesion in finding and learning who you want to be, or in this case, who Jenna wants to be.
In the first episode of the season Mr. Hart (guest star Anthony Michael Hall) asked his students in his creative writing class, “who you want to be?” 19 episodes later we learn who Jenna wants to be but before I get to the end with Jenna’s assignment, I have to talk about Mr. Hart’s and Lacey’s advice to Jenna.
Advice #1: Mr. Hart
Jenna struggles with her paper so Mr. Hart shares a personal experience with her but more importantly, he opens her eyes with his message.
“…he wanted to teach kinds with talent how to face criticism and discover that success isn’t about winning. It’s about staying in the game, not quitting, or letting someone make you quit. … I want you to realize that all the hardship and all the criticism that you face is making you a better writer and a better person. So don’t quit now before you learn that no matter what you do or where you go, you can’t escape yourself.”
Advice #2: Lacey Hamilton
Lacey takes a look at the cruel letter she once wrote to Jenna and can’t imagine what she did, and takes a moment to be grateful for Jenna’s forgiveness because she imagines what they might not so close right now if Jenna hadn’t forgiven her. However, what I liked about this scene is, Jenna still struggles to write her paper until she receives this advice from her mother:
“You are not this person. You realized your mistakes, you took ownership of them, you made amends. Honey, without the bad days, we can never appreciate the good ones and there are so many good days coming your way. Just do me a favor. Forgive yourself like you forgave me.
You can easily fall in love with a boy, girl, or someone, but the hardest love you’ll ever find is your love for yourself. Jenna’s quote to Matty is spot on. You have to wake up one morning, truly look at yourself in the mirror and like what you see, and say, “you are awesome. I love you.” You must love yourself before you can let someone else love you, and I’m so glad Jenna realized that because as much as I love her with Matty, at the back of my head I always believed she was with Matty for he’s love towards her because she didn’t know what’s so great about herself to realize how great she is.
The episode comes in full circle with Jenna’s final monologue in the end, as not only is it from her paper, but show creator, Lauren Iungerich, admitted on her twitter account it’s a love letter to her to the folks she worked with and for the fans. I wish I found a good video instead here’s the quote which is pretty explanatory and doesn’t need any farther saying.
“I had been struggling to think of what to say, so I stopped thinking. I was convinced I didn’t know who I wanted to be and then I realized the answer was all around me. I want to be someone who’s willing to forgive. (Kevin and Lacey) I want to be someone who cares more about other people than themselves. (Val) I want to be someone who can tell it like it is. (Sadie) I want to be someone who would give up everything for the right reasons. (Ming) I want to be someone who sees the good in everyone. (Jake) I want to be someone who is a true friend. (Tamara) I want to be someone who always tries to be a better person, (Matty) and someone who learns from his mistakes. (Mr. Hart) I want to be someone who encompasses all those things so I can finally be that girl who doesn’t need a boy to be happy because I’ll know how to dance all on my own.”
For now it’s unknown when exactly Awkward. will return, or what’s next for everyone in the next season, other than it’ll be back in 2014. Until then, you can watch all the Awkward. episodes from every season at MTV.com.